crap.  i just googled myself (bored/killing time on a friday afternoon at 4:30)

and for the first time, i found that my full name is connected with this blog. 

it's 'cause i mentioned a certain grandma's last name, which is also my own.  oops.

this means it no longer feels safe and fun to share here.

sorry, all.

this is it for this blog.  for good this time.

love you!

i really love fiona apple right now. 

i said in my last entry that i was not going to stop seeing him but, surprise!  he stopped seeing me.

dumped.

but, reveling in my "jiltedness" more than a little bit. 

lovin' the dark side.  the woman who finds her power in being rejected by a man.  i'm using the f-word, getting a real tan, eating crap (i had a buffalo burger with mom yesterday,) wearing cleavage tops, and drinking too much coffee. 

and then, off and on, feeling sad.

that the way it goes.